Baba no words can really explain my thoughts of you. I think of you every day and every hour if not every minuet.
Our family, our lives have not been the same since we lost you. I still not can accept that i will never see you again, i still sometimes talk about you as if you are still here because i don't want to admit I have to continue my life without my dad present.
You have been part of everything I have lived through these last 28 years. I had a period where I wanted to move out but now I am so grateful to have lived at home with you all my life par few yrs. I miss you so much and we have fallen apart, we have a huge part of our puzzle missing. It pains me to see Mum without you, she is in agony. I don't know how we will get through this, somehow the days have turned into months. No matter how old I grew, all i wanted was to be close to you and be your little girl. I hope I made you proud and I hope we find strength to find some form of acceptance and happiness as a family until we meet again as I know you would want us to. I miss your face, your voice, your humour, your calmness and just YOU. You did drive me mad in but Id do anything to have you back, I’d give anything just to have a last day with you even. I do hope life has continued for you, you were took too soon and have alot more to give. I try to find comfort you are with me somehow. I am so sorry, you didn't deserve the end of life journey you had. It haunts me everyday. I am so angry and I will never be the same again. I love you so much.
Dolly xxxxxx
Katie
30th September 2021